In the beginning was the Tao.
All things issue from it;
all things return to it.
To find the origin,
trace back the manifestations.
When you recognize the children
and find the mother,
you will be free of sorrow.
If you close your mind in judgments
and traffic in desires,
your heart will be troubled.
If you keep your mind from judging
and aren’t led by the senses,
your heart will find peace.
Seeing in darkness is clarity.
Knowing how to yield is strength.
Use your own light
and return to the Source of light.
This is called practicing eternity.
(Tao Te Ching, chapter 52, translation by Stephen Mitchell)
We have been talking about living life spontaneously. Lao Tzu has said that is how the Tao expresses itself in every being in the Universe, and that expression is one of love. Lao Tzu describes the Tao as a loving mother, giving birth and nourishing all things; and, as something that isn’t external to any of us, it is inside all of us. Today, we continue on with this theme, as Lao Tzu talks about practicing eternity.
To do this he takes us back to the beginning, where we find our Source, the Tao. And he reminds us that the Tao isn’t just our beginning, it is also our end. All things issue from it; and, all things return to it.
He has told us this before, yet we continue to have trouble understanding how to find the Tao. That is why it is helpful to know that we are all expressions, or manifestations, of the Tao. If you want to find the origin, trace back the manifestations. Recognize the children and you will find the Mother.
Yesterday, I told you what the point of all this is. It is that we are free. Yet, we don’t live like we are free. We live like we are slaves, rather than children. The imaginary chains we carry cause us plenty of sorrow. And Lao Tzu wants to help us to be freed from those chains and that sorrow.
This metaphor of slavery and chains vs. being free children, relates to the illusion that masquerades as the eternal reality. We need to see the illusion for what it is; and accept that the way things are really is the way things are. That is the eternal reality. That is where free children dwell.
So let’s talk a bit about that illusion. Why do we so easily fall for it? We can’t really prefer the chains of slavery to the freedom of children. How is it that we get so lost?
Lao Tzu tells us that it is because our minds are closed in judgments and our hearts are troubled by our traffic in desires. This is what makes us slaves. If we want to be set free, then it is up to us. We are each expressions of the Tao. We are the children of the Tao. And we aren’t ever going to find the Tao except through finding it inside ourselves. Everything you need is already present within you.
As long as our minds are closed in judgments and our hearts are troubled with desires, all we can find is darkness when we look inside ourselves. But that doesn’t have to be the end of our story. Lao Tzu invites us to dare to peer deep into the darkness, and find clarity. But how, when all I see is darkness?
I know just how scary that darkness is. I have peered inside my own enough to know how utterly naked and alone you feel. But only when you dare to peer into that darkness will you find your own light. You won’t find it by being led by your senses. And you must keep your mind from judging. But this is the way to a peaceful heart.
Something you will learn as you make your own way through the darkness, is that knowing how to yield is your greatest strength. We have talked about yielding before. It isn’t just slowing down and letting others go in front of us. It is also, producing abundantly beyond anything that we thought we had inside of us.
If we want to return to the Source of light, we will need to use our own light. It is this practice of eternity, which is just another way of saying, living life spontaneously, that will bring us through our own darkness.